Was I never good enough? by Shelby Carter

So tell me, was I never good enough?
did I hold my head to high, proud of who I was & where I was headed?
Or did I poise myself with class, & in your eyes, this trait was dreaded?
So tell me, was I never good enough?
Because I wouldn't argue, I'd just leave it alone
for childish was not a title I wanted to own.
So tell me, was I never good enough?
My intellect was just a little too high
& you were used to having someone with that hustle of "just getting by"
So tell me, was I never good enough?
because my priorties couldn't be broken & my mind was always focused.
& everytime there was an obstacle it could never tear down the both of us.
So tell me, was I never good enough?
Since I was independent and handled my business
& you would cringe everytime you heard "Miss independent"
So tell me, was I never good enough?
Because your standards were set low & my essence was prestige
so you settled for less, letting that other opportunity free.
So tell me, was I never good enough?
Because even through the storm, my smile still shined
& I would always say, "You're not worth the tears that I cry."
So tell me, did that make me unworthy? Did that make you leave?
Because if it did, I want you to know, I am not the one who faced that defeat.
So tell me, did I meet your criteria, was I ever good enough to be your daughter?
& if not, then tell me how you feel now, because you do NOT meet the required criteria to be my father.
Tell me what I ever did to you, for you to treat with such neglect
when all I ever had shown for you was loyalty & respect.
Tell me who waited every saturday, morning until night
just to see if that familar car would somehow come into sight.
Tell me who sits here, and writes all this sh**, for you to probably never read?
only to sit back and cry, because I never thought for your love, I'd have to plead.
So tell me now daddy, am I unworthy, after seventeen years..
did it even hurt your heart to see my eyes full of tears?
Tell me why! Why was there never a spot in your heart for me, your child?
& why do you draw a blank with my name, in your mind shouldn't it be filed?
Tell me daddy.. what is it that I can do to just have your love..to feel like I belong..
Because believe me daddy, thats all I've desired all along.
So tell me, was I never good enough?
Just me, being myself, born into the situation that never got resloved
& growing up simply feeling as if it was my fault...